You think you know alot of yourself but u know nth about yourself

somebody once told me i am a person who would just always quiet at anything treating everything around me as joke sometime..
perhaps its true, everytime something bad happens or when i feel sad, i would just false a smile and thinking that im a really suck alot as a person..
whenever i try to change and just want to keep a quiet life going on, i know i am hurting a few and isoloating myself, sometimes i wonder is that what i really want?
a noisy life with tons of thinking inside.. or a quiet life with tons of thinking but if im always quiet i could easily faux it…
damn i feel damn sucky again…

somehow if you are reading this….i been thinking what you trying to think. perhaps what i really want is a companion..however..out of something.i think i cant really seem to tell anyone what is going though my mind..even you…im sorry..but im really feeling to forget u.



-zarich