conversation with myself.

har har very farneh izzit
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Hi there Sam,why are you still awake?

I've things on my mind.

Like what things that need that urgency?

Like everything.

Everything?

Not everything,I just can't sleep.

Its the mind that controls the body,what troubles the mind will trouble the body.

The mind is a everything,pretty,ugly,good,bad,happy,sad,love,hate.

So what have became of the mind?

It became restless.

Troubling issues?

Always.

Of what importance?

Trivial yet it persists.

Quarter life crisis?

Everyday is a crisis.

So what is it of you.

That is my trouble.

Of life?

What else do I have?

Question is,what will you do of it?

The same question resounds in my mind every single day.

Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player. That struts and frets his hour upon the stage and then is heard no more.

I don't want to take the stage.

Is that a choice?

Why wouldn't it be a choice?

It is your stage,you're the lead,everyone else is but a cast member.

I cannot live my role,I breath no life into it.

Nay,this is your show,your stage,your audience.

Shows will be criticised,audience can be loud.

What does it account for?

Naysayers,falsetongues,I am of my own.

And you shall always be.

So what have become of me.

What have become of the audience?

They want a better show?

My show is a choice for their watching.

A choice that some who watch do dearly love it.

Yet there are many who loath it.

Which show wouldn't have love and hate.

Duality?

What happened to singularity?

He is always watching,can't you see him?

I can't,he's so near,so close that I feel that I can touch him but I couldn't.

He whispers loudly yet I hear silence.

Is he the director?

He's the producer.

So what will be my time on stage?

Time? Time is only but a tool for us to organize ourselves.

Time is the only thing that we all have in abundance and yet it is the only thing that we always crave for more.

When did time started?

It never started,we took the liberty of creating it and enslaving ourselves to it.

We have from here till eternity,however well we organize it,we still face an inevitable end.

Then why bother.

Precisely,why bother.

I question existance.

Why exist when it will end?

I wonder,whether one day,I will only see darkness. That feeling,when you're having a dreamless sleep. The void,the black. Absence of light,no conciousness. Just total darkness.

It is the mind that controls the body.

Is the mind reality or is it abstract?

Blindingly real yet it is...sadly abstract.

So with death marks an end to the mind.

Is it really so.

Marks an end to reality.

An end of existance.

What after that?

I hope that I am dreaming.

Now you want a sleep with a dream.

Maybe I am.

You're not real,he is not real,she is not real.

You all are not real.

Then what is real?

Nothing is real.

And when death wakes me up,it will be a dream that is shockingly real.

A dream that will last awfully long.

A dream that I hope is worth remembering when I wake up.

Who wants to wake up from a sweetdream?

It might well turn into a nightmare.

Or a sweeter one.

I might forget all of it when i wake up.

Losing the point of having one.

Maybe I'll never wake up.

A dream that will last forever?

Yeah,and each time I wake up from one I dream of one again.

And it continues and continues.

Demeaning its existance.

It is existance.

...

Shall I sleep?

What if you don't dream.

What if I seize dreaming forever?

I wouldn't know.

Maybe like always,I will wake up.

And start to dream all over again.

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Final Fantasy AdventChildren Complete Version

Trailer 1


Trailers 2


For those who watched previous version pls watch again,now square enix are getting crazy.

Download Link (Copy and Paste) : http://psp.cngba.com/psp2000/psp2000xw/2009042268648_4.shtml

New time table

Every thursday to friday class = Jesus speaks; 50 students 50% are fall asleep
20% are listen mp3 20% crapping and 10% pay attention which is sit most front with lecturer in hall

subject:Core-Ability

Mr.Baoz @ 1Utama

There's this newly open shop in 1 Utama that sells incredible variety of Taiwanese steamed buns.It's located just right in front of Cold Storage and Q Jelly Bakery Shop.But too bad its not mr.hubert yap open.

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check taiwan website:http://www.mrbaoz.com.tw/ - duno how to read /...

Taro Custard Chocolate Roll

Onion Chicken Baoz

Viennese Cheese Baoz

Oolong Tea

Soul Garden @ 1 Utama

The Restaurant

View from the other side

Prices compare

Take all you want la

Lots of sauces to choose from..

Singapore,Thai+Chopped Garlic,Korean,Local Sauce.

Cooking progress! itadakimasu !

Throw all rubbish in

Coffee Chicken taste like chocolate wtf zzz

Worse cendol

thats all for lunch,then off to bowling 3 rounds

pc fair

ok, fuckup malaysian ppl still can try to con guide me wrong way how to go KLCC.
anyway nothing much to see,accesories drop like hell and resellers dont earn


this is my new mouse Razer DeathAdder Lunar white rm199; regreted to buy coz im no longer be gamers zzz.
but just i only used not more than a day;condition its still new; any souls wants to get from me can contact me +60122020279/msn:leonheart_49@hotmail.com

- sam

new semester !

as usual back to normal study life;but this time my uni marketing developer fixed time table for my class everyday monday till friday 9am - 5pm.mostly i slack for 1st week few days during lecturer teaching, anyway im doing fine in uni just actually not teaching; i slack for the reason we have orientation effecting psycho-ing some of us student fall asleep LOL ;

recently semester break for 1month what i always do its dota>ro>sleep repeatly steps.

5pm after class, reached home brain loading what i can do,online whoever i msg in msn mostly are away/ignored/avoid me/already started dota-ing or whatever wtf what i can do ! no assignment , presentation whatever /zzz




-Sam

random post

im doing fine, my hand recovering and keep feel itchy



-Sam

Ching Ming the Real Day

4th april 2009 saturday
ok its very suffer me and dad went to pray my dad's uncle,my great granddad and great grandma all are different cemetery to keep travel from 5am-1pm; 5am my dad wake me up ask me ready up to fetch my aunt and grandma.ok the real day i was guess thought 5-6am should be not many ppl and its a good time to go pray but end up we reach there any cemetery its full house swt;theres long story i lazy to type here just becoz my both hand now is injured damaged by burnt hellnotes and rush to go help ppl pick stuff at somewhere a spot middle deep fire for everyone to burn stuffs after that rush to hospital to check and tied bandage.so now im not use to it do something wif my both hand bandaged and cant hardcore to dota/CS keep just feeding ingame.

end here goodnights =)

peace out
- Sam

RM3k wages salary how to survive for whole family ?

Let's do some simple calculations here
In Malaysia, the average family income is RM3,000 /month (where father works, mother doesn't).

I understand there are many families whosemonthly income does not reach RM3,000, but, to make things simple,let's take RM3,000 as the figure. Ok la, right?

Okay, let's start rolling with a family which has Papa, Mama, 1 daughter and 1 son. Ngam-ngam ....

Calculation begins...

Electricity and water bill: RM100
(No air-con, No home theatre, No water heater ... ok?)

Phone bill : RM100
( House phone Telekom )

Handphone Credit: RM50

Meals for a happy family: RM775
(3 meals on RM25/day, RM25 for 4 persons...?)

Father eat / teh-tarik during working hrs: RM155
(RM5/day, RM5 ... can eat what?)

Car repayment: RM400
(A proton saga aeroback, 7 yrs repayment)

Petrol (living in city, traffic-jam): RM300
(go to work, bring son to school,only can afford one car running)

Insurance: RM650
(kids, wife and ownself)

House repayment: RM750
(low cost housing repayment for 30 yrs,retired still have to work to pay!)

Tuition Fee: RM80
(got that cheap meh? i don't think so)

Older children pocket money @ school: RM20
(RM1/day, eat bread?)

School fees: RM30
(enough ah?)

School books and etc: RM100
(always got extra to pay in school)

Younger children milk powder: RM50
(cannot have the DHA, BHA, PHA one, expensive)

Miscellaneous: RM100
(shampoo, rice, sauce, toilet paper)


Oh wait!!! I have to stop here, so

No Astro,no movie @ cinema,
no DVD,
no CD,
no online,
cannot KFC,
cannot McDonald,
cannot go Park walk during weekend (petrol expensive),
Never chit chat on phone with grandparents, and etc...

Calculated to total up... WALAO EH! WTF! RM3,660 already

EPF ( Employees Provident Fund ) not yet terminate, income tax somemore leh.....already RM3,660

How to survive lah ladies and gentlemen ???

Our Deputy Prime Minister asked us to change lifestyle

How to change? Don't eat? Don't work? Don't send children to school and study?

Besides that, I believe in Malaysia population, there are millions of rakyat Malaysia which still don't earn RM3,000/month!!!

What is this? Inilah Malaysia Boleh... Sorry ... it should be Malaysians Boleh , because we're still alive and kicking!!

Our politicians must be mad lol

Please forward and comment boleh or tak boleh. No wonder so many Ah Loong around lah...



- Sam

Power of online game BOT company!

Can you get a slack job like this? only can see this in Setiawan ( Malaysia )

- Sam

Electronic Sports World Cup 2009

The 2009 season has begun and already be announcing details by March 2009. Gamers are ready for another round of the world’s most exciting e-sports championship? This year, be bringing a delegation of pro-gamers to compete against the rest of the world at the World Finals in Bercy Paris.

Go International Group Sdn Bhd, the Malaysian Licensee for ESWC 2009 will make further announcements on the revised dates for its ESWC 2009 Malaysia Grand Finals, in conjunction with Independent Youth Festival originally slated to run from 24-26 April at The Spring in East Malaysia and 27-31 May at 1 Utama Shopping Centre in West Malaysia. The dates will be announced in the first week of April 2009

For further information, visit http://www.eswc.com/ =)


Just think bout it,any team wanna participate for this year? I not really like to participate anymore maybe , just that tired and wasted my study time;maybe after graduate?

Once again good luck to Mao aka Dexter Wong Hong Siang team for dota @ kuching

Venue: High Street, 1 Utama Shopping Centre
Date: 30-31 May 2009

Qualifiers would be as followed:
24-26 April ESWC East Malaysia Qualifiers, The Spring @ Kuching
9-10 May ESWC Northern Qualifiers, Penang
23-24 May ESWC Central Qualifiers, Subang
27-31 May DIGITAL WEEK Indie Youth Fest // ESWC 2009 Malaysia Grand Finals @ High Street, 1 Utama

Stand a chance to win prizes worth RM120,000

Games which will be played will be CounterStrike 1.6, Trackmania, FiFa 09, Warcraft and Dota!! The official games this year would be Counterstrike, Trackmania & FiFa09

It is open to all gamers around to participate and win exciting prizes which would allow them to represent Malaysia in Paris,France.

To register please email to eswc@gointernationalgroup.com/indieyfest@gmail.com or even call +6012-3853638/03-77270093

- Z

New begin

Still looking for gadgets , skins , wallpaper , etc more to edit.

Wallpaper - Metal Gear Solid 4 ; Beauty and the beast Corps

Skins - Normal skins

Gadgets - mixpod



will be right back


- zariche